ceritera

heyya! we meet again.hehe.
aku bersengkang mata malam ni.ni pun naasib baik tak tertidur depan laptop macam malam semalam.haha.nasib baik lappy akak aku ni tak meletup.kalau tak, dengan aku sekali la hangus.tak dapat la aku nak berceritera lagi kan.hehe.
oh ya, tadi aku menjadi kaunselor a.k.a penasihat agung yang tak bertauliah kepada one of my friend who is in trouble regarding a guy who likes her.ahah! seems like i was tooo expert in love matter rite?haha.nonsense betul la.okay berbalik kepada cerita tadi, my friend yang seorang ni told me that she don't feel like replying messages that come from that guy. kalau boleh, she don't want to reply it at all.sampai macam tu sekali tu.haha.i asked her back, what brings her to act like that..she told me that she only want to be friend with him.not more than that.dulu diorang pernah berkakak adik but now, that guy makin berani..there's no more panggilan "akak"..hurm..that is so brave of you my dear..i can't called him adik since we're in same age..so my friend agak bingung with this. i said that, she have to tell him the truth.before the things getting worse..in fact, in july we are going back to our campus and of course they will meet again.. tak nak la merasa kekok nanti..moreover, they used to be a close friend before..it's not nice la kan..huhu..for me, this is normal.yes normal.why i said normal? we can see by the way we treat someone. if we do really like her/him, of course this problem would not occure right? but if not, the way we treating him/her was sooo different..easy to feel bored, easy to get angry and acuh tak acuh je bila buat benda bersama-sama.it is obvious kot.we can see it everywhere..i told this not because i was too expert in this thing but we learn form mistakes kan..the experience and based on the story that i heard from my other friends has taught me a lot regarding "love matters"..what can i say to her just now is, she need to tell him the truth..or both of them will hurt because of perangai masing-masing.. hurm..aku ni senang je nak nasihat orang lain..bila terkena batang hidung sendiri, sama je,.ya saya mengaku i don't have a boyfriend right now..setakat suka-suka tu ada la..but sekarang berkawan je dengan semua orang and let the love come itself to me.no need to paksa-paksa rite? :)
4 years ago, i do have one..haha.yes, he is my first love.wink2!he is one of my classmate..and we hide our relationship from our friends since we are prefect in that school so need to behave ourself..konon-konon je la.haha..only two my closes friend who knows about this.and they was so suprised.sebabnya, aku dengan dia suka bergaduh and perwatakan dia yang agak lurus bendul menyebabkan my friends tak percaya aku ada something2 dengan dia.haha.we act like nothing happens between us when in the class.kami bertekak, aku selamba je sound dia kalau dia tak siapkan kerja dia (kami satu group untuk matapelajaran bahasa melayu masa form5) and kalau ada budak-budak lelaki kacau dia, aku tumpang sekaki gelak.haha.jahat kan?kalau budak-budak tu tahu kitorang ade something masa tu, masak la aku dengan dia kena perli.so nak selamat, baik diamkan aje..haha.we have a great time together, eventhough we are not like other couples, we are happy..kami berkomunikasi through SMS je.al-maklumla, masa tu baru mampu nak pakai handphone.hehe.and that time his niece was in the same school with us but she was in form4.dan kebetulan her class was in front of our class..she knows about this and selalu la berborak-borak..siap pernah bagi statement berani mati lagi depan kawan dia..dia cakap ape, "mira ni nanti jadi mak sedara aku.so korang jangan nak kacau-kacau dia ok.."haihh budak ni..sampai aku pun terdiam masa tu.haha.aini aini..i'm wondering where is she now..we only stick together for 5 months before we need to break up because of unacceptable reasons..after SPM kami masih berhubung and ada la dia cakap nak sambung balik..we're back together but the things was not going the same as before..our relationship was on-off and sampaila tak contact langsung sampai berminggu-minggu..alih-alih kami dapat masuk sekolah yang sama untuk sambung study form6..we took scince stream but i choose to get in a physic class meanwhile he is in biology class.kami macam orang asing masa kat sekolah tu.we are not speak to each other and no eye contact at all.pelik kan?dari pernah jadi orang yang kita sayang tiba-tiba berubah jadi macam tu..until end of 2007, i leave that school because i got an offer from Uitm for december intake.and i leave him there too..a few months later, when i was in uitm, he sent me a message.his first message after lama tak dengar cerita dari dia..kami kawan balik.sekadar kawan..but now, kami dah tak contact..entahla.dia selalu je tukar nombor sampai aku sendiri tak tahu dia guna nombor mana sekarang..pandai-pandai la nanti dia cari aku kalau nak aku datang majlis dia kahwin.haha..oh ya..masa form6 tu, cerita aku dengan dia dah terbongkar.dan seperti yang dijangka, semua yang tahu tu tak expect langsung aku dengan dia.haha.nampak sangat perbezaan antara aku dengan dia sampai orang tak boleh nak jangka..padahal ada sekali tu, aku pernah merajuk dengan dia di hadapan beberapa classmates kami gara-gara dia tak nak tolong aku buat kerja lukisan kejuruteraan..tapi nasib baik dia buat jugak and aku duduk je tengok depan dia time tu sampai sorang kawan aku tu pelik.haha..tu je la..sekarang aku tak sure dia belajar kat mana..tak dapat dikesan jejak mamat tu..hope everything is fine..tamat sudah cerita aku dengan dia..lepas break dengan dia, pernah cuba untuk relationship yang baru tapi tak berjaya.ada yang orang tu hak orang lain, ade yang sekadar nak main-main and ada jugak yang aku sendiri tak boleh terima..sampaila ke tahun lepas.yeap 2009.start to find a mr.right la konon-kononnya.haha.tapi tak berjaya.hehe.salah percaturan mungkin.hehe..and now, i'm okay with my "single and available" status.i'm soooo loving it.haha.and i just let the love come by itself..bila sampai masanya, akan datang jugak.cuma lambat atau cepat je..tipu la kalau cakap tak jealous tengok orang lain tapi tu mereka.masa aku belum sampai lagi..so, just go with the flow je la..hati tak runsing, minda tak kusut.. yeahh i'm strong bebeh! :D

till then, i'll stop here..
till we meet again in next entry.

"u, thanks for being my special one for the 5 months.i know i'm not a good one for u and hope u will find someone who is better than me..u deserve for that.and send my regards to your sister.you are her little brother so she expect the best one from u..good luck in whatever u do.and hope after this we still can be friends..we used to be friend and let it remains till forever.."
love,
mia..

~w.n.a~

p/s: aku sepatutnya buat entry pasal benda lain,tiba-tiba terbukak cerita lama pula.hehe.but the fact is, he will not reading this..i'm very sure with that.haha.

hello there! =)
i got so much words to say but you know what, i'm not in the mood to be a story-teller at this moment..haha..it sounds sarcastic right?yeah i know my blog was not popular as others but i'm okay with it.it's not a big deal at all when nobody read my entries which is sometimes "ntahapeape" kan..at least i have a space to speak with myself..now it's sounds like orang putus asa pulak.haha.just forget about that.. ^_^

ok now i have my own broadband.yeahh now i can online whenever i want.haha. :p
i took the student package and i need to pay rm50 per month..well, i hope i can pay the bill every month!hehe..since i already have the modem, so i don't have to pay more than rm50 during the registration..but unfortunately, i can't install the software of the modem to my lappy because i just format my lappy and all the previous data has lost..dangg! it is useless la if it can't be use with my own lappy. so, for this time being, i use this modem with my sister's lappy. -__-
according to the promoter at the celcom centre kb, i need to spend more than rm150++ for the new modem..haiyaa..duit lagi! since my practical allowance was sooooo "mahal", i think i should buy it later..adoyaii..masalah masalah!

and the last thing is, i feel like there's a gap between me and my friends.it is just because of we are too busy with our new routine now?maybe..we are too busy with works.the practical life was not easy as i thought.it need some sacrifice..sacrifice in time, money and your feelings too.too many feelings that need to be care of.and the rest is history~~
honestly, i missed my life in uitm.i missed all the things there.the environment, friends, etc etc..
i have to wait till this july before i can get in there back..haihh..tu la..mase ada kat sana, sibuk je nak balik kan..now, rasekan! * i talk to myself*

till then, i'll stop here.

with love,
w.n.a

p/s: start to give up..don't let me down..

terkejut.

terkedu.

tak tahu nak cakap apa..

sekarang aku tahu apa yang kamu rasa masa tu.

tapi ini lagi teruk. and it was unexpected at all.

i need to do something.

~w.n.a~

p/s: i feel like i've been neglected..

random

hello there!

hehe.. first of all, i would like to congrats myself for the success in changing the blog templates. haha. pheww.. it's quite hard for me since this is my first time doing this by my own. before this i asked nazmi for help. so, after this i can change my blog's skin anytime laa..haha.. i like! :D

next is, finally i bought the scale ruler 'kipas' last wednesday. i have to spend rm25.oo for the stuff. but no matter what, i have to buy it. so, redha je la when the money goes out from my purse..

on the same day, i went to Jabatan Pelajaran Negeri Kelantan to submit my application form of MUET exam. kalau tak ada aral melintang, i'll be sitting for exam this April as a private candidate.. and most important things is, i'll be taking the exam at my old high school, SMK Ketereh..hoo yeah hoo yeah..back to old school yaww!haha.. :p

and last but not least, HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY AZREEN! may Allah bless u..

itu sahaja. :)

p/s: i think i should go back to KEX tuition. my english is getting poor now. haihh.. :|

~w.n.a~

hurm..apa yang nak dicakap:

1.sudah berjaya dapatkan baju,jeans dan sandals baru..haha.. :p

2.perlu mendapatkan scale rule kipas supaya senang nak buat kerja especially bila nak kira reinforcement beam dan yang sewaktu dengannya dan paling penting tak perlu lagi menggunakan yang orang lain punye..have to say this, tempat praktikal saya tidak menyediakan kemudahan ini.. -__-

3.sehubungan dengan perkara di atas, my friend, siti amirah bt azmi, dengan baik hatinya menawarkan dirinya untuk tolong belikan dan siap nak pos ke rumah pembaris itu..hooo yeaahhh! love u mira!

4.my log book masih kosong,suci dari sebarang tulisan di atas helaiannya..bila mahu mula tulis ni wahai amira?...jangan sampai supervisor kesayangan bersungut sudah.. :|

5.saya terfikir, rasanya saya telah buat kesilapan yang separa besar..dush!!!kan bagus kalau diam je.. :|

setakat ni je la dulu..

sekian.

~w.n.a~

p/s: ayat2 kat atas tu macam terlebih skematik pula..ahh apa saya peduli?ini laman saya kn?..

buat2 lupa, saya berada di kelantan sekarang.esok hari ahad dan bukannya cuti hari minggu.esok kerja rupanya..adeihh.... -___-

minggu pertama di tahun 2010 dah lepas..minggu yang agak menjengkelkan..paling tak boleh handle hari selasa tu la..entah kat mana silapnya pagi tu i'm not in a good mood..blur je..sampai one of the manager kat office tu tegur sambil petik2 jari dia..ada la sekerat hari aku macam tu..then kena balik lambat pulak hari tu...sabar je la..then hari khamis dari pagi sampai petang kena selsema..nak buat kerja pun tak selesa..rasa macam mengganggu orang lain je dengan bunyi bersin.haha..tak macam kuat pulak kan aku bersin..hehe..

oh ya..aku ada terdengar satu lagu nyanyian Adam Lambert, kalau tak silap aku dia ni juara American Idols..kalau silap tu maaf la ye..aku tak follow up sangat rancangan tu.huhu..tajuknya "Whataya Want From Me"...aku pelik bila baca tajuk lagu ni..pelik bila tengok ejaan 'Whataya' tu..hehe..liriknya ada di bawah.. :)

"Whataya Want From Me"

Hey, slow it down
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me
Yeah, I'm afraid
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

There might have been a time
I would give myself away
(Ooh) Once upon a time
I didn't give a damn
But now here we are
So whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Yeah, it's plain to see
That baby you're beautiful
And it's nothing wrong with you
It's me, I'm a freak
But thanks for lovin' me
Cause you're doing it perfectly

There might have been a time
When I would let you step away
I wouldn't even try but I think
You could save my life

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

Just don't give up on me
I won't let you down
No, I won't let you down

So
Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me

Just don't give up
I'm workin' it out
Please don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up, need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
Hey, whataya want from me
(Whataya want from me)
Whataya want from me
Whataya want from me

p/s: rasa macam nak gelak guling2 bila tengok sekeping kertas tu..but hey, itu tetap rezeki kan? :D

~w.n.a~

2010

phewww..dah masuk tahun baru dah..sekejap je rasa..pejam celik pejam celik dah habis setahun..banyak benda yang jadi sepanjang tahun 2009..ada suka, ada duka dan ada jugak aku buat benda berani mati.haha.ape benda tu, biar aku dan mereka yang tahu saje..sekali lagi, aku nak minta maaf untuk malam tu..kamu nak tahu, ada orang gelakkan kita masa jumpa nak bagi cerita tu..dia gelak sebab dia cakap muka kita tak boleh blah tengah cover malu..ade pulak macam tu kan?..siot je..dia tak tahu betapa gelabahnye aku masa tu..bimbang sebenarnya.. :p
ok tutup kejap cerita tu..aku boleh cakap yang tahun 2009 ni ada la mengubah aku jadi manusia sikit..(hurm..before ni aku bukan manusia ke?haha..)..tak..maksud aku, aku rasa aku banyak memerhatikan keadaan sekeliling lepas tu fikir then buat spekulasi sendiri..haha..tu yang penting..suka je buat spekulasi dan kesimpulan sendiri..lepas tu pening.haha..*geleng kepala sambil senyum*..i should give some credits for those who sudi nak melayan kerenah aku sepanjang tahun 2009 ni..cik sasa,kema,mira,su,nazmi,nazrul,myesarah dan ada la 2,3 orang lagi yang aku tak tersebut dalam ni antara orang yang paling kerap aku bekerjasama untuk tahun 2009.
oh ya tak lupa, bulan ramadhan yang lepas aku sempat tolong nazmi handle satu event untuk persatuan PERUBAHAN..penat..tu je aku boleh cakap.haha.siap boleh ponteng kelas ganti ETR lagi malam tu..siang hari tu lagi la..nasib baik tak pengsan masa kelas ganti PP..kebetulan pn.suzila buat sesi soal jawab tengah hari tu..so semua kena berdiri.siapa yang boleh jawab baru boleh duduk..aku ni dah la yang memang tak boleh berdiri lama2..t'kena pulak hari tu memang hari yang tak bertenaga..dah nama pun bulan puasa..bila dah lama berdiri tu,aku dah rasa lain macam..aku cakap kat syasa yang aku rasa penat+pening..dia boleh gelak2 pulak..sekali aku toleh kat dia,dia terkejut tengok muka aku dah pucat sangat.time tu memang aku dah tak larat nak bercakap dah..aku terus duduk macam tu je..try panggil puan nak bagitau aku duduk sebab nak pitam tapi puan tak perasan..budak2 yang perasan aku duduk padahal tak jawab soalan pun lagi dah pelik..haha..nasib baik tak ramai yang perasan keadaan aku time tu..kalau tak kecoh jadinya..haha..nasib baik la lepas aku duduk kejap, keadaan aku ok balik..tapi still pucat la diorang cakap..hihihi..tapi bukan setakat tu je..lepas class PP,terus sambung class ECO..nah amek kau!assignment group aku kena buang ikut tingkap..adeihh la..nasib baik aku tak pengsan masa tengok assignment elok je melepasi tingkap nako tu and terus jatuh sampai bawah..sedih kot tima tu..tapi masing2 ahli group aku buat muka cool je.haha.profesional la katekan..then balik class eco,kena berkejar pergi Dewan Sri Iskandar (DSI) nak selesaikan apa2 yang patut..memang tak mendapat rehat la hari tu..makan berbuka pun laju je.yela..risau takut peserta event tu sampai dulu daripada tukang incharge..bila tengok majlis tu berjalan dengan lancar je, hati lega..biarpun aku bukan AJK rasmi event tu, tapi aku still rasa bertanggungjawab jugak..aku tak tahu la kalau ada yang cakap2 belakang sebab kemunculan aku yang tiba2 tu tapi aku buat sekadar nak tolong seorang kawan.there's no hidden agenda ok..bila kawan minta bantuan dan kamu boleh tolong dia, why not kan kamu tolong dia?tu bukan isu besar pun bagi aku.tapi bagi mereka yang tak suka tengok orang yang buat kerja secara bekerjasama, aku tak tahu..habis event tu, kami lepak2 kat luar DSI tu dengan cik teh and cik 'ain..lecturer berdua tu pelik sebab aku je perempuan yang ada malam tu..haha..saya pun pelik wahai cik2 berdua.. :p
tu la yang paling aku ingat...ada yang lain tapi biarlah..haha..nanti kalau ada masa aku buat sesi flashback untuk next entry ya! :D
hari last 2009, aku sedang berpraktikal..so far, semua ok sehingga lah ada satu hari kami dapat tahu sesuatu yang masa tu jugak rasa macam hampa sangat2..macam lagu UNGU tu,'hampa hatiku'..tapi lepas rilex kejap,aku gain balik semangat then buat kerja macam biasa..frankly speaking, masa dapat tahu tu, aku rasa macam nak balik rumah time tu jugak..tiba2 perasaan tak puas hati dan teraniaya datang dalam diri..then aku try to think positive and motivate myself,perlahan2 ok..at the moment aku belajar one thing, bersyukur dengan apa yang ada..memang rasa hampa,teraniaya tu takkan hilang tapi at least bersyukur..kena kuatkan semangat balik and buat kerja seikhlas yang boleh. :)
akhir kata, SELAMAT DATANG 2010..semoga tahun ini akan membawa lebih banyak kebaikan dan keberkatan di dalam hidup kita semua..amin.. ^___^


p/s: aiseyy..no more '-teens years old' dah.. :p


~w.n.a~